claudia's world-

2006-02-12T07:35:00.000-08:00

i have moved.
http://claudiarocks.livejournal.com

ahh.see you there.
will some smart soul teach me hw to change my livejournal template?im hopeless.

2006-02-06T06:27:00.000-08:00

what is love and how much do i know about it?not much at all i believe.sometimes i dont even know if i make the right decisions.
ytd i watch tian shi wo ai ni and it was so nice.damn sad.and fiona xie said that its always better to love someone more than
they love you.i guess to a certain extent that is true.but its so sad if love becomes more like a business dealing than just giving
freely.but what if you give so much and get hurt in the end,whats the point?in tian shi wo ai ni,fiona xie just wanted a simple
white realationship,but qiyuwu was a flirt and she couldnt take it.after a fight they broke up.but she taught him how to love.
he never really forgot her.she was so sad.if she had not put in so much feelings into this relationship,maybe she wouldnt
be as hurt?i dont know.ROAR.cant you just leave me alone and stop asking me to choose?i want to tear my hair out already!
anw,afterall i told you i will try my best.
campcraft sucks!haha.cz of the bloody shelter.there are still bloody holes in it.shit.ahh well.act,no one cares anymore.just
want to say,thank you chow for encouraging us,for appreciating us, believing in us and spuring us on and helping us to
unpitch.i think you rock.
ahh.off to order the unit tee tmr with yamaP.<3

2006-01-28T08:08:00.000-08:00

at yixue's hse now.his eyes almost popped out when i told him that you dont need to pitched a tent for campcraft alr.
ugh.act,i'd rather pitch a tent.at least im notso cluesless abt that.
feel like a failure.really.but its cny,so cannot think abt sad stuff!
HEEEHEEE.

um,my girl cousins and i had a very,um,in depth talk just now.
what can i say?
at least cheryl's happy now.isnt that all thats impt?i guess it is.but i kinda liked her old bf.he was nice i guess.ahh.as long as she's happy,but its so i dont know,wasted?6 and a half years.oh well.i shall learn treasure all that i love from now on.not gonna let them slip away so easily frm nw on.yes.i might even get THAT courage i need!
wish me luck!

jamie,no matter what,you'll always be my best friend,no matter what.i know i can trust you.best friends forever okay?love you,sis.

2006-01-26T07:28:00.000-08:00

well.i just had an very enriching talk with pt just now.(:i think she prefers to refer to it as really
boring.but yes.i do know that i really think too much sometimes.
"why is it that some people are so pretty ,smart and everything and some others are so like,fat
short and stupid and stuff?so unfair"-me
"no.if youre pretty,you'll most prob be stupid.my sis says that god is fair.if youre ugly,you would
have other talents."-pt
"then i should be the most talented person on earth?but i havent found my talent yet!"-me
"YET.that means you'll find it."-pt.
yes,pt.i'll believe that i'll find something that i enjoy and am good at(: thanks for believing that
im not stupid like everyone else thinks.
oh a psychological test!from pt.
out of the words choose te one that appeals to you most.
something something nan shuo.
i chose shuo.and that meant that i have either 1,2 or even alot of people liking me now(?!)
and they would do anything i tell them to do.
how absurd.if only there is a person who would do anything for me ): its okay.if nobody is
willing to do anything for me,i'll do anything for myself.!see.notice my new positive outlook?and
since i cant ever be close to pretty,i'll learn to radiate beauty from inside.i know i still have a
long long long way to go but if someone just bekieves in me,i know i'll have the courage to
strive towards a better self.i will believe in myself.
sometimes i wonder,whats the point of liking someone when you dont tell them?how
meaningless.the feelings will fade one day if you dont express them and everything
will go back to normal.like nothing ever happened.oh well,easy to say.if i ever liked
anyone,i dont htink i'll have the courage to say it anyway.i dont know.mommy says
that im insecure.well,i used to deny it.but i guess i pretty much accept it now.well.
i know i'll never be one of the best.but i'll try.i wont give up.this i promise.
oh.its such an emo post,im feeling emo.ahh well.

2006-01-25T07:33:00.000-08:00

YES.i got sarah to change back my template for me already!
jamie screwed my other one up.sigh!
doing unit website now.tired.
taking a break.

AT NTUC:
i was looking at the magazines,suddenly,
"hello,baby" a husky voice said as a pair of arms went ard my shoulders
"WHAT THE HELL?!?" i half-shouted and turned ard.

it was sarah.bloody hell.i got the shock of my life.crazy woman!

"i lack motivation to go to school"-me
"why?is it cause your eyecandy died?"-sarah
"SHE DIDNT DIE.just that i dont see her ard anymore"
"same thing(?!).you should look for another eyecandy"
"crazy.you dont look for these sort of things.they just come."-me
"fine.DONT LOOK AND WAIT FOR SOMEONE TO MAGICALLY DROP ON YOUR HEAD,WONT YOU?"
"ouch.if she/he's as fat as you,i wont live."

i love my best pal!thanks,sarah.
im so tired.
thanks for making me laugh!

2006-01-22T06:43:00.000-08:00

really should thank jamie for changing this lee hom template for me seeing that my computer is down):
sigh.
lee hom is CUTE man!<3

thanks,jamie.
youre cute too!

2006-01-20T01:14:00.000-08:00

im blogging at pt's hse nw!(:
supposed to do the unit webby now but candz is hogging the only usable comp):
my comp is spoilt man.sigh.
tmr is sentosa outing.outing my ass.np stuff agn.SIGH.
my fave phrase nw is kiss my ass.
i dont know why either.but yes.
i am officially part of the campcraft team now.
my weakness is rejecting people.
i like campcraft.its just the team and the politics,if you get what i mean.
i will try my best and not pull down my team.i will i will i will.
i hope i'll be good enough.
what the hell am i doing this for?
smth to this effect:"mdm lim recommended you, the cis recommended you"
excuse me but KISS MY ASS.
im a second choice and i'll always be,what bullshit?
i wont fall for it.i might be stupid,but not THAT stupid.
so why the hell did i agree?i dont know.
im so tired.
went for reap tdy.it was good seeing tht i finished both physics and bio tys in one and a half hrs.
im proud of my determination.i was sitting with angie love but we didnt sing!
we did WORK.<3!

whoo!everyone,welcome my single status.
i will not allow anyone to make me sad!
i am single and proud of it!
go to hell.i hope youre happy with her.
she's pretty anyway.i admit.happy together forever.
thanks for the past bittersweet 4 years.
thanks for all youve done for me.
i appreciate it.i really do.
bye.

I AM HAPPY.
shall CONCENTRATE ON MY STUDIES.
this kind of stuff wont get me dwn.
i love all my anatas and laopo and ouxiang and kbox partner!

2006-01-10T05:57:00.000-08:00

oh heck what i said in the previous entry.i cant really be bothered to type in
perfect english nw.ugh.actually kinda lazy to blog lah.but most poeple(mutual
friends) have realised that we have the same handles on our msn nicks(:
well,fancy drills are OVER.ugh.while marching out in sending part,i dont know
why.but this stupid tear just leaked out from my eye and slipped down my face
for no apparent reason.i was SO nervous and freaked out.well,it was okay.i
think.well,its over.so i shant brood abt it anymore!
um,went for np ytd.it was okay lah.i mean,hw often do u get a session of RT
only?thursday's going to be drills only.UGH.i am SO tired.during the CCA
day thing,the cis want to allow the sec 1 students to come into the NP room.
like,wth.its so unfair to the cadets lah.the sec 2s and 3s dont even get to
go in but they,who are not even in NP get to go in?the NP room loses its
meaning.we didnt get to go in until half of sec 3.but they go in now?
whatever.like my opinions really matter.wtf.i am so sick of it.LET ME OUT.
i have been eating ALOT recently.sigh.i feel fatter.alot fatter.sigh.its
okay!i might noy be beautiful on the outside.but i will try to be beautiful
on the inside!all i do is eat these days.):i feel like a whale.ahh heck.
okay.nth much else.

better you than anyone else i guess.

2006-01-05T06:14:00.000-08:00

Yes, a new school year has started and I still can’t decide if I should make resolutions or not, seeing that I’ll break them anyway. But not making resolutions kinda take away the spirit of New Year. UGH. So many things have happened recently. Its like, the 3rd day of school only and I’m so exhausted. HELP. The cheers and school tour with the new Sec 1s have been not bad. Well, Chow did most of the talking, thanks babe. Fancy drills are going along quite well but honestly, I can’t wait for REAP to start. I’m not supposed to say this, but I really can’t wait to get out of NP. It’s more like, release after the endless trainings during the (as they claim) holidays. I am SO looking forward to weekends. Well, actually, I’ve always been, no? I’m going to do social studies now! OH. I will type in perfect English from now on. Caps and all!(:

2005-12-24T20:23:00.000-08:00

i was msging angie early into the morning just nw.silly psycho(: we were both awake cz we were on the phone.haha.she's cute!haha.i had almost forgotten our plans of going to kbox tgt!(: im looking forward to it man!

i was so happy and high all the way into the morning that i kept randomly msging people.SORRY IF I WOKE YOU UP!

oh.i got a new tigger and he's cute.im putting benjy up for adoption.anyone who wants a smelly bad tempered fat bear,call me.

oh.who am i kidding?i still love you ALOT,benjy darling!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

2005-12-23T01:06:00.000-08:00

lets just say i wont want to ever go back to china agn.
well,got to see john.he took us to dinner and practically made us walk ard the whole of china.he's more of a direction idiot than me.(:

was reading zai shuo yi ci wo ai ni that day.it was SOOOOO sad.and i was having this HORRIBLE sore throat.and then at the ending i started crying like some idiot.IT WAS SO SAD!then my throat hurt even more.i dnt know!it was a horrible night.i kept coughing,crying and blowing my nose.UGH.i cant explain it.never mind.im such an idiot.

my throat hurts like hell.must be all the chocolate chip cookies ytd at pt's hse.

2005-12-02T07:19:00.000-08:00

people like me really should not be armed with so messages.

or a phone.

1.26 at night.
me:leon?are you awake?i cant fall asleep.
leon:hmm?yes.i cant fall asleep either.

2.32
leon:claud?are you asleep yet?
me:uh no.its too hot to sleep.
leon:then turn on the air con!
me:too cold.
leon:-_-" nevermind.

3.14
me:EH.you sleep already?
leon:even if i was you would have woken me up.but no.
me:OH.i still cant get to sleep.

4.54
leon:SLEEPING YET?
me:i think i was.for a while at least.I CANT GET BACK TO SLEEP.why arent you sleeping??
leon:BECAUSE YOU WOKE ME UP?
me:OH sorry.

so in the end we just talked until i had to get ready for my outing with huisi tdy.which will explain why im so tired.but sorry i kept you up the whole night,dude >.<" but it is nice to know that somepeople are willing to sacrifice their beauty sleep for you.

yes.im attention seeking,so?:D

2005-12-01T04:21:00.000-08:00

YOU KNOW.

sometimes i feel so stupid.

like a moth.

let me elaborate.

a moth flies too close to the fire and burns its wing.then a while later,flies back and gets its other wing burnt.you would think tht having tht occur repeatedly,the moth will be smarter and not fly THT close anymore.but THIS stupid moth(points to self-->) just flies closer to be hurt again.hws tht analogy?a bit stupid and irrelevant but YES.so why do i tolerate them?

yes.anw,smth has gotten me super pissed off.

YOU were angry cz we put you as a reserve in the fancy drills team.you said you rather be off the team than a reserve.WHY?because of your PRIDE.tell me what is wrong with being a reserve?i dont see the other reserves complaining.i dont see them as lesser cadets either.SO WHY?moreover,you are already in the campcraft team,do you need two jobs?then you complain you have no time to study.then you dont realise YOU ASKED FOR IT.you lay the blame on others.as for why we put you as a lowly(in YOUR perception).why?thats cause you are MEDICALLY UNFIT,get it?what will we do if you faint half way?i wont say that im in a top physical condition but i do not have to be warded into hospital regularly,do i?yes.it might not be fair for me to hold this against you.i know you do not want this to happen too.but its a FACT.and in this world its facts they care about,isnt it?then i decided to give you my place in the team.i cant say i didnt mind,i ENJOY fancy drills. but YOU were unhappy.so i gave it to you.but aft that you say no,you decided that you dont want it anymore.cause you felt GUILTY.cause you felt that it wasnt fair to me.FAIR MY ASS.this world is nver fair,get it?then you make me take my position back.just cause you feel GUILTY.i LAUGH.like you even care.its always been about YOU,YOU and YOU,hasnt it?so when you want the position,we're supposed to relinquish it to you.then after that you can just say you dont want it and return it.WHY ARE YOU CALLING THE SHOTS HERE?are YOU in charge of fancy drills?

i find it SO hard to look you in the eye already.so hard to even smile at you.

2005-11-30T03:35:00.000-08:00

i feel like im losing touch with the people that are closest to me.

everybodys changing,im changing too.i guess what they say is true,friends do come and go.people drift apart.sometimes i really wish i didnt have to grow up,didnt have to leave the past behind.everytime i learn to grow up a bit more,i leave a part of me behind.but isnt that what growing up is all about?i feel like im losing myself.like im not even me anymore.friends and memories i've left behind now seem so far away.i just feel like im on this island thats drifting slowly away from mainland.like i want to go back but i dont know how to turn back,like i want to hold on to the tiniest sliver of the past but i cant grasp it at all.WHY?maybe its cause the past was so much better.when phrases like :"i dont friend you anymore." could still be heard among "best friends".and everything could be resolved with just a "sorry" and no hard feelings left.

okay.forget it.im feeling so weird and strange now.im just rambling.i just wish i didnt have to grow up.

2005-11-30T03:02:00.000-08:00

new template agn(:

this is so cute lah.

2005-11-29T01:58:00.000-08:00

at anata's hse nw.

HER BED IS SO COMFORTABLE.
-swoon-

wait wait.dnt get the wrong idea!
i was reading michael connelly on her bed then i fell asleep.which means,anata was elsewhere and we did NOT share a bed(: but i love my anata,nevertheless.
anata was entertaining pt and shaf.playing reversi and mastermind.so here i am.
for the blind pple,i changed my template<3 oh well.i think its pretty.

anw,i have to make do with rifle number 22.seeing tht pt took 23.i wanted 23 cz tht is ahdi's birthday.BUT,pt didnt want to give it to me.ROAR.im SO over my 007 phase cz im so over vanness.and well.so i named my rifle AHDI MINUS ONE.

i love ahdi minus one(:

2005-11-25T06:47:00.000-08:00

hmm.smth to ponder.

why do people apologise abt smth then just make the same mistakes all over again?
then your apologies have come to nought.
i dont need your apologies.
im not a charity case.

YES.that is for you.i dont need you in my life.

(: anw,i think i've got it bad.HOT HOT HOT.

2005-11-23T07:02:00.000-08:00

ok.this is one time i would like to rmb.

me:"j!i love ye qu!"-squealing-

j:"huh.isnt ye qu chopin's nocturne in chinese? i didnt know u liked classical."

me:"silly,its zhou jie lun's new song."

j:"oh THAT.i think i can play it."

me:"REALLY?!?go go!"

-rich piano notes sound-

me:"wait,thts not it."

j:"no?its chopin what."

me:"OMG.i mean YE QU,hon."

j:"oh.sorry.THAT."

finally i get to listen to ye qu.i mean like,what kind of 18 year old knws hw to play CHOPIN? yes,im impressed.but, 0.o nerd?haha.sorry.thanks for entertaining me for free anw.LOVE!

tell me why i feel like a replacement.TELL ME WHY.i dont want to be anybody's second okay?

2005-11-22T07:09:00.000-08:00

going with cindy to cut my hair tmr!<3
WHEE~
listening to tao ze on the radio nw! HOT HOT HOT<3

i love his voice okay!

chow thinks warren peace is hot too!
i love warren peace!he's super hot man!

2005-11-21T07:19:00.000-08:00

HAHA

me:"hey hey.whats-your-name.be careful.the tray is going to drop."
mike:"HEY YOURSELF.you FORGOT my name?"
me:"dude, i was distracted!"(i was on the phone)
mike:"yeah,on the phone with you boyfriend ah?"

-_-"

mom:"where r u nw?"
me:"tiong macs."
mom:"im at tiong too leh."
me:"do what?ARE U STALKING ME?"
mom:"no.i just want to see if youre straight or les what."

-_-"

accept it.im SINGLE.ok fine.even if i was attached before,tht was a while back.and no,i dnt want a relationship nw.
fake ady<3 says im a flirt.but i beg to differ.i just love ahdi,polar bear and a few other ppl what.tralala.
finally got a new phone even though its BUTT UGLY.functions are gd lah.dad bought the wrng phone.BLAH.i'll live with it.im not a brat!(:

ok!phone time!LALA.

i love you love me!<3

2005-11-19T18:48:00.000-08:00

1.You get one wish of anything, what would you ask for?AHDI!!.(x
2.What animal would you be?erm.a cat so i can slp the whole day?(:
3.Something you want to do in your life.erm.SAVE THE WORLD!ok.thts too difficult.just make somebody,anybody's life a little better.
4.One time there were these Ninjas... (finish the statement)who drank a special potion and became NINJA TURTLES!!
5.One song you could listen to over and over again.graduation ENERGY'S zui hou yi ci and everything in my heart<3
6.Coke or Pepsi?act,they taste the same,no?
7.Something you currently desire.AH DI!!haha.he's super hot.want to hear him sing LIVE!!8.What's a "mastoid"? (Take a guess no peeking in a Dictionary) A ROBOT?hw the heck would i know?
9.One good deed you've done lately.feed a stray cat??SO CUTE!<3
10.A funny moment in your life.erm.when i was watching a scary movie then i buried face in someone's shoulder?it doesnt seem embarrasing nw but it was ok!

WHOEVER WANTS TO DO THIS QUIZ,JUST DO IT(:
HAHA,ali!!i did your quiz agn!!<3 im honoured(:

2005-11-17T00:43:00.000-08:00

ok
shall reply ali's and poot's 5 weird things tht one.
1.i like to slp in the day but not at night?is tht weird?
2.erm i can listen to a song i like continuously for 2 weeks but if i stop listening to it for a day,i wont want to listen to it anymore?and if i hear it i want to cry??this is definitely weird.
3.if i sing and i hear the song or someone sings with me i go out of tune but when i sing alone is ok?yeah.
4.i am a female terminator.i spoil things REALLY fast.dont ask.
5.i think theres a ghost in my room.i am serious.

whoever wants to do it can just do it.lazy to appoint ppl.

2005-11-14T08:28:00.000-08:00

aft much pestering i finally said the things i never dared to admit before.and i'm glad i said it.cz i really do.im not sure what i want nw,but when i do,you'll be the first one to knw ok?my life has you.and will always.im glad you pestered me to say it.i'll shout it from the roof to everyone.but im confused nw.so give me time ok?you make me fly too,honey

2005-10-28T08:03:00.000-07:00

this is so irritating. first,you ask me whats wrong,and why im angry with you.and you act like you really really want to solve our problems.you act like you care.then when i finally actually open up and TRY to talk to you,you get angry and hate what im saying.if you ask,listen.if you dont want to listen or cant accept what i have to say,why the fuck do you ask in the first place?i didnt force you to listen,i didnt point a knife to your throat nor hadcuff you to some lamppost to force you to sit dwn to listen.and if i didnt tell you hw i felt,you'll get angry and say im not doing anything to help solve it.then can i ask you? WHAT THE FUCK MUST I DO TO DO THE RIGHT THING IN YOUR EYES? nth i do is satisfactory to you what.so whats the point?nxt time,dnt even bother.

anw,back to the happeir things.i was talking to this really cute person.haha.she's so funny lah.(: you make me smile,honey.haha.just when i thought i am the worst singer,you put a different lvl to things altogether,baby.and i was so tired lah.cz sme one kept me awake,babbling on about all her silly stories and stuff.<3

went to watch flightplan.MAN.cheat my feelings.we went to tiong to watch then it was so early so no one was at the cinema.so we had like the whole theatre to ourselves.then we were watching halp way and i dnt knw why but i just started stoning then candz and pt thought i was sleeping.but i dnt knw why i started stoning either.but it was supposed to be scary!then me and pt hudddled tgt cz both of us were so freaked out.only candz was so zai(: and pt's so SLOW.she took like 10 yrs to get the story.SIGH.haha.yup.

anw,im going on a hiatus,dnt feel like blogging.

2005-10-20T07:01:00.000-07:00

do u ever get those days where you feel like the world is such a shitty place and tht everyone is against you?im having one of those now.and it sucks. big time.like sometimes you wonder,after u grow up,hw much of the real you did you leave behind.UGH.i cant explain it.ok.ive never been exceptionally good in expressing myself.but i'll try.erm like,hw many friends you really liked,you lost touch with?hw many people you cared for are no longer part of your life?its sad,yes.i dont know.BLAHH.im not even saying HALF of what i mean now.forget it.
its such a stupid day today.isnt it amazing hw one person can ruin your day even though they arent really part of your world?i am not making sense.okay.never mind.

i havent been really happy in a long time.i will work on it.
i will be happy even when im sad.
i will be happy and i wont cry.
i will be happy and stop imaging things.
i will be happy and stop biting people.
i will be happy.i will i will i will.i believe in myself!

then why do i still feel like biting sheng or kicking the walls?
i want a huggie from angela the skinny twerp.she's huggable and she gives nice massages.

2005-10-16T19:22:00.000-07:00

I LOVE CANDICE NEO.
seriously.A LOT.

she bought me this HUUUUUUGGE tasmanian devil stuffed toy for my bday.(so what if its overdue huh!) its GIAGANTIC.taz can swallow benjy WHOLE.my poor love is so terrified he's hiding under then bed.i keep torturing him but carrying him near taz's mouth.HAHA *evil laugh*taz is the BIGGEST stuffed toy i have ok.its like,5 times bigger than benjy.and benjy isnt really very small.<3 candice.tht taz cost A BOMB man.<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3.

deicided not to go to school tdy.so boring.SIGH.lessons until 3.30.doing dnt knw what.YOU GOT TO BE KIDDING ME MAN.i'm going to play with my taz and snooze!

2005-10-13T06:38:00.000-07:00

i am sick.

physically i mean.not mentally.DUH.
i had to skip first day of BTC.ah whatever.i was looking forward to night walk and sentry duty the most lah.in the end also cancel or i cannot do.so.heck.i dont even want t talk abt BTC.(anger check,anger check)
shouldnt have gone.feel worse now.there ,AHEM,mucus stuck in my nose so i can breathe in through my nose.have been breathing through my mouth and i sound like,i dont know what also.ah.why am i bloggong when ive got such a terrible cough and sore throat and headache?shucks.

jamie:"hello,sis!"
me:"hello..."
jamie:"you sound like you got run over by a truck.are you ok?"

dammit.tht stupid sis of mine(unfortunately) called me at 3.20 in the morning to tell me tht?thanks,j.you rlly know hw to make a girl feel better huh.sigh.

is it possible to die of cough medicine overdose?BLAH.i have been gulping it down so tht my throt will stop itching.gna watch movie tmr anw.haha.ANDY LAU<3<3<3

shall sleep.so i can get well.but i cant sleep.SIGH.

2005-10-01T03:36:00.000-07:00

i wish i never asked.i wish you nvr told me.things are so different now from what it used to be.shit.i miss the old you.
you know what?i miss the old me too.
i thought i could forget and start everything agn.i was SO wrong.

2005-09-16T07:19:00.000-07:00

SHIT.this is the 2nd freaking hell-ish day i feel like crying.WHAT THE HELL IS WORNG WITH ME. i really should stop this stupid hormonal thing and stop taking my anger out on the fridge door,room door,handphone and popcorn. this sucks.really.anw,i really think i shall just tape my mouth together forever to prevent myself from putting my foot in my mouth agn.i say the stupidest and most tactless things.SHUT UP,CLAUDIA. what the hell am i doing on the stupid world.wasting my time.i want to be with God now.and i mean it.

slash your wrists and hop off the cliff ;

2005-09-15T07:11:00.000-07:00

go school,teacher scold.
NP CIs scold.
go home mother scold.
wtf.why am i still here?

HYDROGEN 1(:

i wont EVER EVER cry in front of you.cause im stronger than you.
there's NOTHING else that im afraid to lose anymore.

2005-09-06T10:13:00.000-07:00

smeone teach me how to put a password on my blog can?pls?anyone who knows hw to do it!HELP.

2005-09-05T03:32:00.000-07:00

oh my gosh.i just read my last entry and i have NO idea what i was rambling about.insane girl with insane ramblings in the middle of the night.such insanity.SHUT UP,CLAUD.what the hell are you talking abt?!?ok.i'll listen to my inner voice and shut up nw.
YES.i found my hse key(:thanks to a sotong friend of mine!youre the best lah,sotong!you better be ard EVERYTIME i lose my keys so you can look for them for me!i forbid you to go away lah!
went with my cousins to the arcade last night.then we were all addicted to this drumming thing(:and apparently i have NO spatial coordination to speak of.so all i did was wack the drummy thing with as much vigour as possible(:ahh well.it was fun.
yes.and last night,i hardly slept.like,i slept at 5.30.then at 6,i received a msg.got woken up by it.then i went back to slp.tossed and turned on the floor,cldnt get to slp cz the floor was too hard and the air-con was too cold.so i decided to climb on to the bed to slp nxt to the 2 BED HOGGERS.and i was woken up at 7 to go for my lessons.then i thought i was dreaming abt receiving a msg so i went to check my phone and discovered i really did receive a msg.(am i making sense??)then i went to school.to find out tht my lessons only started at 9.NOT 8.POOPY MONSTER lah!!!nake me lose my muh needed beauty slp!like i not ugly enought like tht.ROAR.got 2 new pimples!!!sigh.

yes.anyone wants to buy me a reindeer for christmas?PLEASE?

2005-09-04T14:19:00.000-07:00

its in the dead middle of the night and i really shld be sleeping cz i have classes tmr.and all my cousins are asleep already.but i cant seem to get to sleep lah.somehw im thinking.i really sick of this facade.o dnt know.but,life isnt always a box of chocolates.like sometimes i wonder.why did God put us here if our final destination was to be in heaven?couldnt he just have put us all in heaven and not put us through the agony of iving in this world?and is it because he wants us to learn and perfect our ways before coming into the holy gates of heaven?well,in tht case,men on earth sin.how do we learn?and then people say tht killing yourself is a sin in God's eyes.but,see,in a bible passage it says tht God does not want us to be too happy living in this world tht we do not long for heaven and Him.he wants us to live so we look forward to joining him.so,killing ourselves makes us reach Him faster.shouldnt He be happy then?

with all the questions i have,i rlly shld be going to church more often.why am i being so religious all of a sudden.this isnt me.bye.its 5.20 and i rlly shld slp for at least a while before my classes tmr.i dnt want to knock out in the middle of one of them.

srry for the lousy posts.not in the best of moods.

2005-09-04T09:13:00.000-07:00

ytd had unit hike.it was so much slacker than the previous one lah.haha.then went back to school for AAD.actually i wanted to go straight hme.but then i didnt brng hse key so i decided to go to sch instead.pls.the AAD was ok lah.nt much.okay.im staying over at my cousin's hse tonight and theyre chasing me to 'get [my] butt here nw' so i got to go.funny bunch of idiots(:

my smiles are very rare and precious.cannot just let anyone see one,you know?
HAHA. not funny lah.SHUT UP,claudia.

2005-08-30T09:44:00.000-07:00

i am sleepy.
i wld like to blog abt my new stuffed toy though.
her name is winks.
she's an elephant.and i spent 11 bucks on her.
i'm gna put her nxt to me when i slp.i have enough space on my bed okay!if not,i'll just make benjy slp on the floor:)SHE'S SO CUTE LAH.winks winks winks!i showed winks to my friend via photo.
"hey.she actually looks quite like you!"-my friend.
"thanks.i look like an elephant?!?"-me.
sigh.she has a nickname which only trees knows:)
i love you trees!
we totally rushed back for the briefing frm tiong tdy lah.ran frm train station to school.barely made it in time:) and i had to freaking malu myself by TRYING to blow the whistle as a AHEM demo.but there was no sound lah.FREAKING.'cause it was rusty.EEW.i might have inhaled the rust.good.dying is not smth to be afraid of anyway.im so sleepy.
GOOD NIGHT.
thank you,God,for bringing Winks into my life:D

2005-08-29T08:53:00.000-07:00

gosh
thank god.
ive improved for CTs.
not alot though.
just very happy tht i dnt have to see any tchr this time.
i mean,if you were me,my parents have been paying visits to the HODs regularly every 3 mths or so?since sec 1.this is the FIRST TIME i dnt have to see any tchr okay!yup.

anw,i think my dad thinks my room is a storeroom.he carted in his new 600 bucks bicycle and left it there.SIGH.like my room isnt small enough.he spends so much and he still calls me a SPENDTHRIFT.yeah.and who buys such an expensive bicycle anyway?psycho.i cld buy a new BLUE ipod with tht cash lah.ROAR.its okay.im perfectly happy and statisfied with my ZEN<3.well,till i set my eyes on a new mp3 player i guess.

i think im crazy.smetimes,i feel damn happy.and smetimes i wna cry.WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?hormonal imbalance.damn.

im srry.i'm srry we lost smething special.it just isnt the same anymore.

hw does it feel when u cant trust smeone who you look up to alot.who is a very close family relation?it just makes you wna cry.i cant trust you anymore.because you're on HER side.dnt think i dnt knw it.cause you cant play good guy to both sides.double crosser.i shall not talk to you or call you out anymore.ROAR.

benjy is learning to ride my dad's bike even though his paws cant reach the handles and his stubby legs cant reach the paddles<3

2005-08-27T06:01:00.000-07:00

and all along i was just a replacement huh.
forget it.
i want to scream at you,hurl books at you,kick you.
but.
youre just not worth my time.

2005-08-27T05:52:00.000-07:00

i am so pissed.
i feel like slapping the root of my problem.
irritating.
i cant take it anymore lah.
its okay.
i shall just explode and die.
i'd rather die.
save me.

had MOI session in th eNP rm tdy.
i love the NP room.
it really makes a good classrm yeah?
AHEM.
north by east.i still dnt get it.
pt!help me!
haha.
i life the NP room alot.
if only i cld have ALL my lessons in the NP room
then maybe i wld do btr:)

2005-08-26T08:29:00.000-07:00

i screwed ssgt.shoot me lah.
bloody hell.
vivianna ma'am said:"forming squad"
happily,every single thing flew out of my mind i gave them tukar harluan instead of desebelah or hw ever you spell tht.
best part was,i knew the desebelah one and i wasnt sure of the tukar harluan.
i shld not use swear words frm nw on.
im turning over a new leaf.
my fat legs are oh so tired.

eternal sergeant.
im afraid.
benjy is afraid tht his friends will knw tht im his mum.
sigh,
when the world turns against you.
slap me.

2005-08-25T07:44:00.000-07:00

ssgt is tmr.SIGH.
cause it just seems like i was sec 1 ytd.
ugh.
im trying to prepare myself for failing tmr,
but i do want to pass very very badly.
you knw,like at least do well in smth if i cant excel in my studies?
whatever lah.
forgot to bring my phone to sch tdy.
i was dying lah.UGH.
okay.going to read through first aid already.
hope its paper theory test and not oral.
i'll just stutter my way through and fail if it was oral lah.
damn.
GOD SAVE ME.

polar bear drought.

2005-08-22T06:37:00.000-07:00

ugh.

i take back my words.i dnt think - is cute anymore.i so take back my words.EEW.haha.i'm so mean.
i think polar bear is the cutest lah!:D
i went to the dentist tdy.GOSH,she talked to me like i was a small kid.and guess what my mom said."tht shws hw short you are." -_-"
thanks,mom.

gosh.why is it only when i turn on the com tht EVERYONE feels like they have to you it or they wld combust?ROAR.i rlly need my own com.SIGH.

2005-08-16T06:12:00.000-07:00

the nxt person who calls me any of these:

pampered
spolit
brat

you die.i am none of the above okay?im sick of people calling me tht.there are so many people worse than me,not tht im tht bad at all.ugh.its okay if you do it in a joking manner though.but not with the spit-in-my-face tone.

went to watch CHARLIE AND THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY tdy(:think JOHNNY DEPP.<3>

i need to change my blogskin.bt im too lazy.anyone feeling very free?haha.

YAY.im going SENTOSA with my friends!im happy.i shall wear my polka dotted bikini.

IM KIDDING.i must fast for a year first then can wear bikini.ltr look like sausage ah.

2005-08-06T07:11:00.000-07:00

stupid polar bears prancing ard in my head:D
i want a BIG bear hug frm you.
FLUFFY POLAR BEARS.
CUTE POLAR BEARS.
:D
haha.i think i havent been so happy in a long long while:)
just say you miss me.

2005-08-05T01:27:00.000-07:00

a few weeks ago,my dad happily carted the CPU away,leaving me with NO computer to speak of and a shattered heart to mend.(damn drama:D)
he finally came back with it one day.and connected it back to the monitor.i was damn happy.BUT.
the internet connection got screwed.my dad couldnt connect the computer back.BLAH.and he asked me to find some stupid CD-ROM thing so i could install the modem back.
i found the DD-ROM.installed the modem agn.BUT.the internet connection was still down.I WAS DYING INSIDE.suffering from withdrawal symptoms.(i hadnt used the computer since FOREVER.)
and then i called someone and started stressing over the phone to tht person.
and tdy.i rushed home to call starhub(my service provider) and I GOT IT FIXED.
TAADAHH.
im so proud of myself.

anw,ATC was okay.got like,70++ mosquitoes and sandfly bites):
yup.i love the basha PT and i built:)

2005-07-18T05:50:00.000-07:00

maybe IT is this dormant talent of mine thts waiting to be awoken.

2005-07-17T00:24:00.000-07:00

i think im gonna cry.
are you feeling guilty nw?

went to buy my swimsuit
couldnt find one tht i actually liked.
i think i'll just go jump of a cliff then i can skip ATC.
BAHH.
i think i need a hug.
benjy!where are you?

in the heat of the day,your gaze was impossibly cold.

2005-07-13T02:30:00.000-07:00

haha.i love becca chow.she makes me feel smart.smarter than her anw.haha.cz the heritage projct thing right,i think shafina went to tell becca that we needed to included all the monuments in the logbk.which means all 54,yes.54 monuments inside.and becca went to happily,okay,unhappily research until no.44/then i asked mengwai ma'am hw many we were supposed to do.then apparently we cld just do A FEW.haha.then when i tld becca,she SCREAMED at me.even though it had nth to do with me okay!haha.
anw,im a princess.her royal highness princess claud of rainbowland!i have many royal subjects!
royal companion:jamie wong
royal ~~idiot~~:liang 'ah yue' candice
royal military guard:lau peiting
court jester:brandon
royal lowness:ain
royal gardner:ben
ryal fashion consultant:lyd
royal shoper:athiyah
royal artist:suiyign
royal stablehand:rebecca
royal librarian:christineroyal penpal:will
royal princess-in-waiting:amandy!
royal prince-in-waiting:benjy!
royal gila:shafina
haha.and last,EMIL!my royal plasma.cz i said i was a red blood cell(theyre DAMN cute okay!i want one as my pet) then emmy said tht she was my greatest fan and she was the plasma tht was ard me all the time<3!haha.i love all my subjects!
ugh.i gt 2 honking zits on my face:(

2005-07-03T23:50:00.000-07:00

i was talking to sufan on MSN just nw.haha.fun man.cz the mothership just bought a speaker/microphone thingy.so i was testing it out with her.haha.then we were playing tic-tac-toe and bejewled on it:)there's a certain highscore i want to beat.haha.today's a holiday but im staying at hme and doing my sana project.i lead a sad life man.ugh.anw,i hate doris.so irritating.dnt knw why i put up with her sometimes.ROAR.im such a loser.anw,i found a great way to talk on the phone even if its 12 at night.as long as my mum is on the phone too,she cant scold me and tell me to get off.HAHA.whatever.i totally dnt feel like laughing.

2005-06-29T08:08:00.000-07:00

SERGEANT CLAUDIA ANN CHEAH!

nice or not huh?
i listen until very shiok leh.
HAHA.
very ego right.but nvm.
let me enjoy for a while.
my goal:SI
haha.show tht the NP blood rlly runs in my family:)

i failed first class though.its okay.i shall practice harder and get it nxt time!

2005-06-24T03:10:00.000-07:00

i changed my email add.pls re-add me okay?
claudcheah@hotmail.com
thanks!

2005-06-21T21:35:00.000-07:00

sigh.the sec 2s are going for their pract shoot.i rlly miss my .22 smith and wesson revolver.sigh.I WANT TO GO!
anw,had LMSC already.haha.dnt knw why i was dreading it so much.but i kinda enjoyed it.cause it was rather slack lah.except the falling in part.and hw they give us impossible lunch times.yup.i guess i dreaded it cz of the full u part lah.i hate anything tht has got t do with full u okay!sheesh.and i think i took sufan's skirt by mistake:( yup.anw,randy sir said i was SHY.right.im totally not shy okay!im very loud and noisy and talkative.whatever lah.yup.there's this sir with nice hair.i still think so even if no one elso does!hmmpf.haha.athiyah:his hair is SPIKY!nice!!haha.
then went for sana course.we kinda lost our way.then mdm lim had a fight with the bus driver.so scary ok!then i was so scared tht i dare not sing anymore.haha.cause trees and i were listening t my mp3 player and singing along.haha.so fun.bt aft tht then i dare not sing already):
yup.the place where they held all the lectures was damn freaking cold.i was FREEZING. and i think i slpt through all the lectures.haha.but it was okay lah.cz the guy said can slp what.haha.but i passed anw.(:i rock!haha.the lunch was horrible lah.and pt called it GOOD food.hmmpf.so no standard.tsk.yup.then there was role play.and i felt so OLD cz all my grp members were younger than me.SIGH.yup.but it was okay lah.i was the grp IC and they all cooperated with me pretty well.yup.nth much.then we went t compass point or smth like tht,dnt knw what its called.haha.oh.there was this instructor who had nice hair!haha.at least candz agreeed with me!haha.nt bad looking also lah.yup.he looks like a malay but he speaks chinese.and his chinese is FUNNY.there were these queenstown guys discussing if he was malay or chinese.then he said :"bu yao jiang hua.wo shi hua ren." and he had this accent thing.DAMN FUNNY OKAY.i was going t burst out laughing!haha.yup.nth else.
just tht i havent finished my hmwk!):

2005-06-12T00:36:00.000-07:00

we were drinking sparkling juice just nw.it was a wine bottle packaging.so sheng took out the wine flutes.
sheng:"who wants t cheers with cheers with me?jie,want t cheers with me?"
me:"crazy.so childish.you cheers yourself."
sheng:"hmmph.mum,want t cheers with me?"
mum:"dnt be silly.just drink and hurry go do your work."
sheng:"okay lah."
then he proceeds to t pick up the 'wine bottle' and cheers with himself. 0.o

sheng wanted t go swimming.and i volunteered t brng him
mum:"u crazy ah.i dnt trust ur sister,ltr she busy talking on the phone or smsing then u drown hw?"
sheng:"wnt lah,mum.PLEASE?0.9metres only.cannot drown one."
mum:"hard t say.ltr u get leg cramps."
me:"wnt drown one.he lie down on the floor of the pool his stomach will still be on the surface of the water. "

okay.so i was mean but i nvr said i was nice!

2005-06-10T08:01:00.000-07:00

oh my gosh.
there are 2 wks of the so called holidays left.and i havent done ANY homework yet?except the physics hmwk?cz im a RESPONSIBLE physics rep.yeah right.whatever.but the truth is cz im in love with my physics tchr.HAHA.even less of a possibility.i havent touched any of my othr hmewk yet.sigh.i'll have to pull my my socks then.haha.nth t blog abt actually.i shall waste my life away smewhere else then.take care!

2005-06-04T05:59:00.000-07:00

had the inter unit comp tdy.it went rather well.was in charge of taking a team frm bukit batok sec ard.i think they're a yr younger than me?and the grp leader was more than a head taller than me:(my head was like lower than his shoulders?sigh.im short.yup.but it went smoothly i guess.the winning grps(frm 3rd t 1st)

coral sec
xin min sec
ahem.gan eng seng.

yup.xin min sec was damn nice.at the end they gave crescent NP 3 cheers okay.nice of them.yup.i was dead tired when i came hme.slpt for damn long(:stupid pt went for ndp agn.i got lots of stuff t tell her:(

I WNA GO DISNEYLAND AND HUG TIGGER.

2005-06-02T01:57:00.000-07:00

you nvr call anymre.or msg me.or even smile at me.why?what went wrng?if it was smth i did or said,im srry.but maybe friendships built like ours were nvr meant t last.i dnt knw.i miss you.

2005-05-30T21:12:00.000-07:00

did i hear you right.
cause i thought you said "lets think it over"
you have been my life
and i nvr planned,growing old without you.
shadows bleeding through the light
where a love once shined so bright.
came without a reason.
dnt let go on us tonight,
loves not always black and white.
HAVENT I ALWAYS LOVED YOU.
but when i need you,
youre almost there
but i knw thts nt enough.
and when im with you,
i'm close t tears
cause youre only almost here.

thts part of the song and i love it.have been listening t it on repeat.the lyrics rock:)
why do your eyes look so sad?

2005-05-30T03:38:00.000-07:00

what if one day your mum bought you a dog.n she told you tht aft a month,she wld have to return the dog to its owner.wld you rather u never owned the dog so tht you wld nvr knw the feeling of missing it,or wld you rather keep tht dog for a short time and enjoy the time u cld spend with it?i dnt knw.
went out with pt t watch madagascar just nw.even though im grounded.cz gu ma gave me free tix then the only shows we cld watch was this n smth else.so i chose this.yup.it was nice.it was damn cute.but pt thought it was childish.haha.there were many othr ppl who were much older than us watching it.and i mean grown adults.so maybe we're nt tht childish huh.anw,sheng is gna watch the movie tmr with his friends also:)i watched it first,lil brother!anw,pt and i took neos agn!and we had disgusting uber mashed-up-tgt-with-the-sauce whipped potatoes.
sheng took out the steering wheel game control frm the store rm and nw he's pretending its a real car and he's driving benjy ard.its uber cute.sme times,i rlly love my lil bro:)
i gt a different bed!cz daddy and mum changed to a king-sized bed.so they let me have their queen-sized one:)no point though.i still only sleep on only half the bed.haha.

2005-05-26T00:08:00.000-07:00

my phone is going to be confiscated for a whole MONTH.dnt call or msg me ok?thanks.

2005-05-22T21:49:00.000-07:00

shit.my sunburnt nose is PEELING.my face looks so disgustingly patchy.ugh.

2005-05-21T02:04:00.000-07:00

i just cuty my hair.its kinda short.its ok lah.but...MY HAIRDRESSER WAS HOT!haha.so he was metrosexual.but ITS OKAY.dressing a bit funny though.he wore this shirt which he didnt button except for the last button(which revealed his WHOLE body,i didnt see if he had a nice bod.i was too embarrassed to look!!)but he had UBERLY nice hair.and his colonge was nice smelling!and he could speak cantonese REALLY fast.hmm.appealing!haha.he was pro at cutting hair too lah.haha.

2005-05-20T05:38:00.000-07:00

back frm OBS.hmm.i can say tht it was a rlly good experience.definately once in a lifetime thing huh.the first two days were shitty by my standards i guess.yup.kayaked ALOT.yup.'cause sme ppl didnt get to do the capsize drill thing.i tell you,I TOTALLY DIDNT KNW HW TO STEER THE KAYAK.serious.when chu ai called us to raft up so tht she could teach us,angela(siow) and i totally couldnt get there.heh.we kept panicking 'cause we totally thought we were gna hit the jetty or sme rocks.heh.yup.i totally hate kayaking 'cause its so tiring and aft kayaking when we're rinsing off the kayaks,choon will take the chance to SPLASH you with the water.ugh.yup.totally slept on rocks and uneven ground the whole time.sigh.but the tents are like CHICKEN to pitch compared to the NP tents lah.haha.yup.then we went on a sea ex too!we like kayaked 20 km?against the tide and stuff like tht.it was totally hard on shaf.my kayaking partner.heh.'cause i was too dehydrated and dizzy and totally uninterested in paddling.heh.sorry shaf.i did try though.WE MADE IT IN THE END!haha.and im totally sunburnt.and bruised.VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY sunburnt.i look like a lobster.heh.delia says i look more like _____ nw 'cause im so sunburnt.i cant make up my mind if thts and insult or a compliment.heh:D seriously.everyone got funny ideas about who i look like.thts sad.'cause i wna be UNIQUE.heh.anw,yup.im still kinda dizzy.but OBS was a rather rewarding experience and looking back,i kinda loved it.yup.the instructors were nice!haha.yup.i think this instructor looked like a surfer dude or smth like tht.or maybe a CAVEMAN!haha.he has nice long hair.wld be nicer if it was side parted i guess.heh.ok.thts it.athiyah and jamie and ain:I MISSED YOU LOTS<3

2005-05-14T08:00:00.001-07:00

you knw what?i decided tht i dnt like you anymore.cant believe i was so stupid.i need my own space and privacy.you can say i let you dwn,but at least im free frm this.

2005-05-14T01:26:00.000-07:00

ugh.did anyone just realise tht OBS is actually on monday?thts like too close for comfort huh.ugh.i dnt wanna go!im totally unprepared.sigh.still heav to get alot of things done and buy sme stuff.yup.i dnt knw.i just realised tht i threw away my old nike shoes.tht means i cant brng and wear them for OBS and throw them away aft tht!sigh.imagine 5 whole days with no tv,computer and handphone?sigh.and,some ppl told me tht there were ghosts in the ubin camp place):
anw,dragon boating wasnt as fun as i expected):but it was ok i guess.they cheated my feelings.i thought tht there wld be a dragon's head.and drums and smeone who plays the drums.but.THERE WASNT.hmmph.ok.i decided.i shall join dragon boating when im in JC nxt time.uh huh.then i'll go for races and have the dragon's head and drums there.yup.
went yoshi with teresa,pt and candz tht day.yum.eat until so full!:D

2005-05-11T03:01:00.001-07:00

so pissed off nw.ugh.just came back frm outing with pt,candz,ho.yup.not rlly in a mood to blog nw.well,the exams are over.yeahh.but i screwed up all the papers.so theres nth to rlly be happy abt.i rlly dnt want to get the papers back.i hope the place tht holds all the exam papers burnt dwn or smth.
how does it feel when you find out that people you loved alot and looked up to with great respect and admiration have been secretly taking your most precious secrets and feeding them on to ppl who really really shouldnt knw them at all?some one who you thought could be there to understand and not make judgements.well,i dnt knw that feeling.im numb.

2005-05-08T02:17:00.000-07:00

god.the gay freak who stays in my house is getting more irritating each day.ugh.he was singing lian ai da ren in this high falsetto today.and he obviously doesnt know the lyrics.and i hate it when ppl sing songs they dnt knw the lyrics to.much less in a high falsetto.ugh.and im supposed to tolerate him.right.asshole.hes trying to act cool nw.he just got spike hair.how EEW is tht?so athiyah,maybe you dnt knw who im talking abt,but not all guys with spiky hair are cute. i hate him like HELL.so get outta my life.have been trying to study bio since this morning.so far,nothing has gone in.my brain feels like sludge.think ppl will grow fatter during the exams.cause you eat,then you sit dwn straight away to hit the books.wont your butt grow bigger?well.i was just reading that xiaxue.blogspot.com blog.i think its highly overated.so all she does is spew explict sentences and phrases and she's famous?doesnt take much does it?whatever.i miss my FELLOW GOSSIP MONGER.

2005-05-05T00:35:00.000-07:00

OMG.i still seriously think she looks like mr magoo(or hw ever you spell it) frm tht kids central cartoon.HAHA.i have stupid panda eyes nw.cause ive been talking on the phone til very late at night with sarah:(got up this morning and almost died of a heart attack aft seeing my eyes:(
my neighbour and her friend thinks that ive got SANDPAPER voice.sweet and rough.RIGHT.since when is sandpaper sweet?silly little girl.im sleepy.
the papers were a SCREW UP.forget it.
anw,yes.i promise not to hurl books at ppl agn.even if they call me childish and immature.no matter what they say to me.and even if they are the biggest jerks in the world.
my mummy smacked benjy and twisted his arm just to annoy me.yes!my MOTHER.maybe thts where i inherit my CHILDISH behaviour frm:( i <3 benjy:)

2005-04-29T20:39:00.000-07:00

i have NO idea what her problem is.NO idea at all.so quit asking me.cause i dont care.wo dui bie ren de shi mei you xing qu.ugh.her life has nothing to do with me.thank you.
jamie:i really really miss you truckloads too ok?:)it was nice karaoke-ing on the phone with you.

2005-04-29T02:22:00.000-07:00

ugh.this is so stupid.i was supposed to study for chinese when i got hme from tht unsucessful attempt with pt at the library.cause we were talking more instead of doing work.heh.yeah.but aft i gt hme,bathed,watched tv,read the newspaper,talked on the phone and just as i was starting to study.I FELL ASLEEP!gosh.so i ended up not studying at all besides the ting xie of the first 3 lessons tht practically didnt come up at all.great lah.so what are my chances of actually passing?like NONE?yup.
anw,actually i was only supposed to blog abt
VANNESS WU HAVING SPIKY HAIR.i almost hy[perventilated and died.so cute.cause he was wearing specs and he looked just the right amount of nerdy which made him ultra cute.and his spiky hair made him look more boyish!haha.ok.im happy because i saw him with spiky hair?im crazy.but i like!:D

2005-04-23T03:39:00.000-07:00

ugh.my mum is crazy lah.she thinks im going to be a flirt;a too clingy girlfriend;a lesbian and a girl who likes to chase after guys.hello mum?THEY CONTRADICT EACH OTHER IN CASE U DIDNT KNOW.ugh.shes so irritating.whole day ask me to study.whatever lah.
anw,tht day went to bugis with pt to take neos.haha.it was fun.but i risked my life just to go out with her ok!she better be grateful!haha.took neos 3 times.was fun.haha.pt:nxt time i shall open a neoprint shop since its so profitable.then can always take yourself also.haha.then pt,you can climb up ALL the neoprint machines if u want!cause you're my friend!and i still like you despite all the stupid stuff u wrote on the pictures:)haha.yup.then we went to macs to eat.uh huh.then aft went hme.then mummy asked me to go to jurong to take smth from mu-mu.so made the trip there.yup.then i was talking to lyd on the phone on the way there and home.yup.told her abt stuff that was going on in my life.lyd:thanks for listening:)nothing elso lah.im tired going to slp soon i guess.oh.i like tht hei ye cai hong.the chnl8 hong kong serial.its NICE but really short.only like 20 episodes i think.yup.its nice.

2005-04-16T05:16:00.000-07:00

i feel so stupid.why is tht every phone call form you can just change my mood?what am i supposed to do?its just so stupid.aft all this while i havent learnt a thing have i?obviously not!im not supposed to care anymore.then why is it tht youre still able to hurt me witht the words you say?
anw,my mum thinks im crooked.THANKS MUMMY.when i get calls frm guys,she suspects im in a relationship.when i talk to girls,she thinks im crooked.THANKS AH.talk abt being paranoid.crazy.then i might as well go join a nunnery or smth.then u wont start thinking so much huh.

2005-04-15T07:16:00.000-07:00

ugh.its sad k.im gna fail both promo AND first class.too sad to talk abt it now.sheesh.hell.i feel so stupid.damn.tired.there are like so many tests to study for already.and im still not motivated enough to work harder.sigh.gna fail a maths also.gosh.im just so stupid arent i?whatever lah.i might as well just drop outta sch huh.sheesh.
went to STC tdy.the classrooms look more like prison cells lah.small small windows.haha.but then like tht less distractions.causewhen someone walks by,i'll always turn my head ard and look whos tht.its like this natural reaction.to just turn your head.heh.oops.nvr give the files to TTY.shit.monday he surely scold me like siao one lah.stupid pms guy.dnt wna go back to sch.so sian.wish i could just likedie or smth.stupid.feeling so dwn lately.shucks.
anw,life's lesson tht u cant NOT learn.
NVR TRUST ANYONE.no matter hw much you think you knw them.no matter what they tell you,no matter what they do.cause in this world,you gotta protect yourself frm getting hurt.cause if u dnt,u are the one thts gna suffer inthe end.

-your smile has faded away.i cnt rmb it anymore.WHAT AM I GNA DO?-

2005-04-12T05:55:00.000-07:00

haha.i love ali!whoo.many thanks to her for scanning the social studies source based wksht!haha.or i'll be dead tmr.shirlene koh would KILL me.heh.yup.going OBS soon.sighh.i dnt want to go.but it'll do wonders for my weight and phone bill huh.gd points.

more exercise=lose weight.
better complexion due to exercise and fresh air.
send less messages.
talk on the phone less.
lower phone bill.
i dnt kill my brain cells eith the radiation frm my hp.

im extolling the virtues of OBS.haha.

2005-04-10T02:38:00.000-07:00

haha.so slpy nw.was talking to kah howe until 2 plus last night.YAWN.shes so funny.haha.can talk so fast then forget wht she was supposed to say.haha.TSK.haha.yeahh.then slp at 2 plus last night,then tdy at 8 oclock can msg me to tell me gd morning!haha.yup.and she asks me to frown and smile at the same time if i see her.haha.it isnt possible lahh.so demanding.haha.
doing my logbks nw.RUSHING.sigh.cant seem to find the newspapers articles.how?!?nvm lahh.im so slpy.tried to find a doctor so i could go for my check up tdy.but all were closed.sigh.i think tmr,im just gna skip sch in the morning and go doctor then i go to sch.yup.i rlly dnt want to go for OBS.its disgustuing.u'll come back smelly,dirty,hot,tired and sunburnt!dnt have a choice anw.

2005-04-07T04:07:00.000-07:00

came back frm NP.promo is TMR.shit.im so scared.later fail agn how?i dreamt tht i passed my promo last night.and i was so happy.until i rmbed tht carol once told me tht ppl believe tht if u dream abt smth,it wnt cme true.then i was panicking.heh.yeahh.had a headache tdy.ate 8 panadols?im, crazy.but its the kids type.cause they're sweet.so i take them.yeahh.didnt work.but candz says the more panadols u take,the less effect they'll have on u.ohh well,benjy is cming to sch tmr as my gd luck charm.

2005-04-01T22:54:00.000-08:00

i guess we were fighting for the same thing unknowingly.
but there couldnt be two winners.
how?

2005-04-01T22:31:00.000-08:00

yest was crescentioan day.haha.had to direct the walkathon thing.yup.but only for a while.so i got to walk too![because i wanted to do walkathon,but class walkathon got too many pple alr,so tty ask me to do smth else.]yeahh.walking is one of my past times:Dyeahh.then went for fringe games.hmm.actually, i didnt play at all.yup.wanted archery,but was too impatient to wait.haha.yup.then went to watch the tennis serve thing.haha.candz was happily chasing all the balls like a little puppy.haha.yup.then yakks was reading then i was sitting dwn and trying to go off to slp.haha.then aft tht went off with lyd and crys.haha.sat at the table to slp.seriosusly,i was damn tired because i stayed up until like 2 am the previuos night to dry my navy blue NP shirt.i didnt realise tht mummy didnt put it in the washing machine.so i HANDWASHED it and hung it up to dry at like 11 plus?yeahh.then i got so worried tht i wldnt dry in time so i took it back dwn,and tried unsucessfully to IRON it dry.woah.could see all the water vapour cming out as i ironed it.then i finally gave up and left it in god's hands[aft praying,of course:D]in the morning it was still kinda damp.tried using the hair dryer to dry it and i ended waking the whole hse up.sigh.yup.so i went to sch with a damp NP shirt.and daddy slpashed some of mummy's perfme on me.haha.yeahh.thts abt it.
I WANNA WATCH MY NEW ANDY LAU VISION TOUR DVD!

2005-03-26T04:01:00.002-08:00

wahh.im at chrissypoot hse nw.using her tablet.shucks.im bored and shes ust abandoned me to go dwnstairs jus nw.well,theres drills on tues.
shes been threatening me with the same bloody threat agn.hell.she knws its my weak point.damn.will she only be happy when im sad and theres no more happiness in my life?i admit,theres sometimes when i really dread to go dwn for it.but its actually still a very impt part of my life.if i were to go back to the beginning,i'd chose it agn without hesitation.damn.promo is cming up and she wnt allow me to go dwn for drills.she doesnt realise tht even if i dnt go dwn for drills i wnt be at studying?shit lah.aargh.my life is so screwed.
went for crezawards.wahh.it was ok lah.lasts yrs was better.heh.gt no chinese pop one.sigh.yeahh.anw desmond was there too.he claims he saw me but i didnt see him.haha.oh wells.

2005-03-26T04:01:00.001-08:00

2005-03-26T04:01:00.000-08:00

2005-03-18T21:32:00.000-08:00

wahh.i was watching ht elast episode of lavender just nw.i only watched 1 episode of th ewhole show.yep.and it was so sad!damn.then i was like watching...then xun died.wahh.it was damn sad lah.and i was like blubbering away.it was SAD.cause its like she was pregnant,but she didnt have much time to live.then she say the baby is hers and qing chuan(xu shao yang)'s legacy.wahh.and i thought she had given birth before she died.but apparently not.she and the baby died.wahh.then i decided tht it was too sad.and i turn the tv off.wahh.im such a emotional basket case man.
yeahh.then on thursday,was talking to hsiang yeh online.bloody idiot.he sent me a cute cute programme with bunniys bouncing ard.damn cute k.got buckteeth too:D.then i was like moving closer,thinking so cute so cute.then this ghostly face pops out!i freaked out.started SCREAMING the hse dwn.ass.yup.then i sent it to yixue.haha.i was being evil lah ok?then he got freaked out too.cos he was squinting at the screen,trying to see what was bouncing ard.muhaha.
oh.im v proud to announce that ive finished ALL my a maths hmwk:D

2005-03-15T23:57:00.000-08:00

sentosa was fun.got totally wet man!i was barefooted the whole day.and th esand was so HOT.haha.yep.then huixin ma'am was telling me all those lame ghost stories tht ends up saying BOO!or smth like tht.and stupid,scardy-cat me,fell for every single one.damn.haha.yep.ok.news(to me that is):you can take ANY side of the train frm habour frnt since its the last stop.haha.i felt so stupid when shaf told me tht.haha.yep.coz aft sentosa went to habour frnt for dinner.curfew was 6.but i reached hme at 745?haha.with permission of course.yep.
maths lesson tdy.you call this a holiday?hmmph.yeah.anw,becky said tht rayomnd phua looked like a table cloth.haha.coz he was wearing checkered shirt.haha.yep.then we were eating in class.haha.yep.yeah.then went mobil.anw,jean left le.kinda sad.yep.jean:DONT FORGET ME!:D

2005-03-12T04:46:00.000-08:00

i passed my marksman.hah.yay.yep.i didnt score too well.but at least got marksman.sheesh.agn lose to that cyx.grr.haha.nvm larh.im very proud to announce tht we have 9 marksman in the squad!sec 3 05 forever!yep.even though not all of us passed,i'll just like to say tht we all put in our best,arm power trng,practice shoots and all.at least u knw tht u tried your best.dont be so sad anymore ok?
yeah.and i tried to share my sucess and happiness with u.and what was your reply?'so what?'smt tht meant so much to me,smth tht i treasured,smth i worked for finally paid off,my happiness,just shot dwn by u like tht.i thought i could share it with u.but apparently not.because u just dont care.so if u dnt,y should i?quoted frm becca,'you hurt me more than u ever knw.'
ohh.ppl,nxt time,dnt call my hse.call my handphone at 94568870,in case u didnt knw.not gonna pick up hse calls anymore.thks.

2005-03-10T05:57:00.000-08:00

erm.i feel dwn in sch tdy.not during mass run.but aft recess.cos becky wanted to go back to class in a hurry cos it was chinese nxt.then we were running up the stairs at the landscape garden.then suddenly,proom.i fell.wah.like earthquake.haha.theres a bruise on my knee nw and my fingernail was turning blue black.i had to cut out the blueblack part.OWW.becky is NOT a gd first aider!haha.she cause me alot of pain!haha.thks anw,babe.
yea.had to clean science lab tdy.haha.tsk tsk.
erm.went mu-mus hse.had dinner there.ate jellyfish!yum!haha.just came back.haha.so late.yea.very tired.bloody train so crowded.
ohh.tmrs shooting day!gosh.shucks.i want the marksman badge so badly.sigh.there wasnt arm power tdy.cos the trainer advised us to rest.hmm.yeah.wish me luck!i need it.must get full marks in order to beat cheong yixue.grr.haha.a little healthy competition.haha.need to polish my boots.yup.

2005-03-05T21:12:00.000-08:00

ok.yesh.im pissed off.agn.i knw.whatever.shall not state the reason why.anw,went out with cher yst.nice.went to zara.haha.saw this nice long sleeved top i liked.whoo.costs 50 bucks.my mum will pay.hopefully.anw,i gt my wallet.decided not to buy the billabong one cause i didnt really like the inside.so i took daddy's wallet.its leather one too.haha.and he says it definately costs more than the billabong one.haha.i like it:)yeah.cheryl went to theliang jing ru concert.cool.i wna go also.haha.

2005-03-04T07:07:00.000-08:00

whoo-hoo.went for dry pract.so cool.i totally loved it.the security was like damn tight there.the cantonment police thing.yay.yeah.ok.mw my great ambition has come to light.haha.i bet noone really knew i wanted to be a policeman.yeah.i always wanted to be a policeman.ever since i watch triple 9.tht totally outdated chnl 5 tv serial.haha.yeah.either tht or a radio DJ.whoo~shooting rocks.yea.the the trainer put a coin on my barrel thing.then supposed to shoot then see if the coin drop.haha.candz the coin drop can!haha.mine didnt:)i rock:)haha.yea.i can see a bright career in the police force for me:)yeah right.i'll try.
ohh.i dnt like that cheong yixue!haha.hes all rounder.which means ive very big shoes to fill.darn.like he scored 6 points for his 'o's.like woah.hw am i ever gna acheive tht?and he scored 85 for his marksmen.ass larh he.grr.im such a loser.but maybe if i can get a marksman badge,i can prove to him tht hes not th eonly marksman in the family?wahaha.

2005-02-27T06:44:00.000-08:00

gosh.im depressed.sad.i want chocolate.no.i shouldnt pig out.uh.i feel so LOST.its weird.whatever.
to her:
apparently its all MY fault.yes.u are totally perfect and flawless.yes.and im the sinner.im the person who does everything wrng and screw up at every opportunity.yes.and im a loser.yes.and i guess tht makes u the winner huh?yea.to u im useless,lazy,ugly,stupid,etc.and u're perfect right?yes.whatever.to u,im always wrng what.so theres nothing else to say.so just get out of my face,thk u very much.
ARGH.help.hormonal imbalance for sme reason or anth.im sad.

2005-02-25T06:18:00.000-08:00

phua is a bloody gay pokk.shits.cant stand him and woonie.hell.pls larhs.he cant even chase for his hmwk himself.have to ask tan tze yong to do it.whatever.cant believe he's getting married.yeahh.to a guy.more likely.shits.really hate him.whatever.nw i might get a demerit pt for tan tze yong.shits.oh.he and woonie should just go drop dead larhs.damn.in a really bad mood nw.JAMIE!where are you?

2005-02-22T18:20:00.000-08:00

oh my.havent blogged in ages.shall blog abt CNY.pt and i went to watch seoul raiders.haha.so nice!i decided.ren xian qi rocks even though hes kinda ugly.haha.i still dnt like tony leung.andy lau still rocks more.hahahmm.went to yiting's hse for reunion dinner.went to play with some poppers at near midnight.whoo~like count dwn,we each pulled poppers.in the kallang wave style.haha.so fun.yea.ate alot too.ohh.alot of ang pow money!muhaha.hten nxt day went to guma's hse.brought benjy along so tht he could play with chrissypoo!haha.then we went to watch constantine.was nice.but scary.chrissypoo and i were gripping each others hands during the movie.yea.cant rmb much aft tht.then nxt day went to shawns hse.yea.then chrissypoo and i went dwn for a walk.ended up loosing my earring.so both of us went dwn agn.and we found it even though it was so dark.yay!haha.we rock.yea.then went sakura with yiting and cher's family.ate so much!food is like damn nice.becky and i r going there on saturday.yay.yea.then we went back to cher's hse.watched the quill.heh.the doggy so cute.yea.then charmaine and i went to bukit panjang plaza.yea.ate gummies frm mini toons.yum.yea.bought v days prezzies there.yup.actually there was alot to blog abt.but seems like i forgot it all.hmm.
ohh.im in seach for a guardian angel.hahaha.poor jamie.she's being replaced.ahaha.since jamie isnt in spore anymore...maybe sarah would like to take over her place?haha.whatever.my guardian angel will die of multiple heartattacks.im so troublesome.haha.forever getting crying attacks huh,jamie?haha.i miss my darling angel.

2005-02-06T04:59:00.001-08:00

i'm wrng.its my fault.everythings my fault.everything i do is wrng.happy now?go back to your happy-lala-bimbo world and stop pestering me.

grr

2005-02-06T04:59:00.000-08:00

ohh.my life is so screwed.grr.got back chi test results.bloody hell.cant get over my freaking marks.shits.if i cant even get a A1 for chi,what other hope do i have?shit.damn.bloody hell.i scored a 68.shits.im a bloody loser.like hello?even without studying last 2 yrs,i could still scrape an A1.now?i cant even get a bloody freaking A2.shits.i'm ruining my life aint i?grr.i mean,alot of ppl tell me tht scoring 68 isnt the end of the world.but the reason i'm so pissed with myself is tht because i didnt study.shit.i could have scored so much more if i did.dammit.whatever.i'm NOT going to thinks abt it anymore.
erm.had flag day.i've totally had it with these bloody lousy attitudes of singaporeans.if u dnt wna donate,just say no,thank you.like a civilised person.hah.you knw what some ppl did?they just turn away and pretended tht you're not there.or better still.they give you tht once over glance and walk away.i did smth rather rude to some guy who did tht.i'm not gna post it on my blog cause i'm not proud of myself for doing it. when i look back,it just seems childish and rude.ohh.if anyone needs to knw,can ask rebecca abt it.she saw it and she completely burst out laughing.oh well.yea.my tin was rather empty.cause i wasnt short and cute enough.unlike shafina.her tin was like SO full.haha.yea.then went hereen with shaf.stupid idiot thought tht she dropped her wallet in the bus so we didnt alight at our stop.missed 2 stops.then i had to take an MRT hme.cause i dropped at commonwealth station.yea.ok.nothing much.ohh.jamie went back to england tdy.sighs.miss you,babe.take care.i didnt go to the airport with her.would have been too awkward with him ard.whatever.im beyond caring.i'm letting go of my balloons nw.(all those who watch liu xing hua yuan 2 should knw what i mean.)yea.nth else.MY CHINESE TEST!

2005-02-03T05:45:00.000-08:00

yep.doing the el hmwk nw.the stupid lyrics writing one.grr.stupid woonie so free.ask us to do this kinda thing.really cnt stand her.yea.cut my hair tht day!oh my gosh.i totally look like woonie nw.my life is so sad.yea.supposed to go to kimage to cut but there wasnt student cut so we(becca and i) went to raffles link there.yep.10 bucksquite ok larh.just tht it isnt nice.yep.erm.yea.jon came over the other day then all of us were in the room looking throughmy not so big comic collection.yea.then nw we're supposed to watch movie.yea.only thing is tht jon cant decided what movie he wants to watch.haha.oh wellerm.had NP tdy.got pumped.yea.left my squeezy in class.shucks.hmm.had no drills tdy.only lecture.gosh.was so darn sleepy.grr.i thought i slept enough in a maths alr.haha.ohh.yea.i got a glorious 2 marks for my a maths test!woots.ohh.and 68 for mychinese test.gosh.im so stupid.should have studied.ahh.whatever.i think im gnafail physics too.shit larhs.ohh.i just realised tht ive gt alot of nicks.haha.
claudie
cloudy
mongoose
ann pig
annie
anna
bum bum
claud
oh my.haha.okie.nth much alr.

2005-01-26T01:59:00.002-08:00

yep.doing the el hmwk nw.the stupid lyrics writing one.grr.stupid woonie so free.ask us to do this kinda thing.really cnt stand her.yea.cut my hair tht day!oh my gosh.i totally look like woonie nw.my life is so sad.yea.supposed to go to kimage to cut but there wasnt student cut so we(becca and i) went to raffles link there.yep.10 bucksquite ok larh.just tht it isnt nice.yep.erm.yea.jon came over the other day then all of us were in the room looking throughmy not so big comic collection.yea.then nw we're supposed to watch movie.yea.only thing is tht jon cant decided what movie he wants to watch.haha.oh wellerm.had NP tdy.got pumped.yea.left my squeezy in class.shucks.hmm.had no drills tdy.only lecture.gosh.was so darn sleepy.grr.i thought i slept enough in a maths alr.haha.ohh.yea.i got a glorious 2 marks for my a maths test!woots.ohh.and 68 for mychinese test.gosh.im so stupid.should have studied.ahh.whatever.i think im gnafail physics too.shit larhs.ohh.i just realised tht ive gt alot of nicks.haha.claudie
cloudy
mongoose
ann pig
annie
anna
bum bum
claud
oh my.haha.okie.nth much alr.yay.tmrs friday!i cnt wait

i'm sorry

2005-01-26T01:59:00.001-08:00

i wonder why i did tht.
maybe its better to be selfish and hold on.
but i cant bring myself to tie u dwn.
not with all the oppurtunities tht were waiting out there for you.
i wanted to keep you by my side.
but tht wasnt possible.
it was too cruel for you.
to be dangled on a string like tht
not being able to move on with your life.
so i chose to give up.
i lied to you.
said tht we both should move on.
instead of being stuck in a limbo like tht.
but all i wna do is just hold your hand and nvr let go.
im crazy.but i wnt ever tell you
hw much it hurts to let you go.
maybe u'll be alot happier without me.
dnt cry
move on and dnt look back.
i want the image of your back as the memories of the times we spent.

2005-01-13T17:24:00.000-08:00

yay.at the com lab nw.woonie asked us to do the essay but guess what i'm doing?lalalala.haha.erm.yea.recap.abt campfire.yea.it was not bad.but i screwed up during the flag march in.grr.idiot.yea.then went hme just in time for my pi li huo.YAY.pi li huo is like damn interesting nw.stupid zheng xian believes tht xing su lan deceived him nw.like FINALLY.yep.and biyu stopped the wedding in time so zhengxian wont have to marryxingsulan.xingsulan is EVIL.ok.i dont think anyone understands what i'm saying.nothing much to blog abt accept tht pokemon totally rocks!haha.ohh.i'm reading a new comic called love for venus.so cute.ok.more nxt time.

claudie rulez! =D

2005-01-01T04:36:00.000-08:00

ok.im back.im blogging on microsoft word nw since I cnt blog directly on blogger.spyware crap.anw,korea is tons of fun.and its REALLY REALLY cold.like,the coldest,-6 degrees,at the yong pyong ski resort.the ski resort which filmed the winter sonata.haha.teresa!i went there.haha.teresa:did you get to see bae yong jun and choi ji won?i didnt.haha.i dont like bae yong jun and the girl anw.so i dont care!haha.i only care abt xianghe.haha.anw,pt:xianghe isnt ugly!ahh.hes v cute!u obv have very horrible taste.hmmph.my cousin thinks hes cute too!haha.yay!ok.abt korea nw.haha.gosh.its damn cold.but at sme parts was ok.i mean,its just the beginning of winter there i think.yep.but i think the tour leader was pretty shocked when I wore a tshirt and trackpants dwn the bus to eat.then she and the photographer were like touching my arm to see if I was really human or smth.haha.so funny.but the winter jacket was so bulky.didnt bother to wear it much.except when it was too cold.yea.the food wasnt tht nice.ok.practically every meal consisted of steamboat.yea.the first day breakfast was nice.no steamboat.just udon noodles.the soup so sweet and tasty.loved it.put lots of chilli powder in it.haha.yep.but the lunch was horrible.yucks.they just threw all kinds of seafood into the steamboat pot.like,sotong,crab,snail,mussels,oysters.and sme other unidentifiable stuff.yea.kimchi tastes horrible too.but the korean tour guide said tht kimchi helps ppl to lose weight.gosh.even if one bite would allow me to lose one kg,i wont go within 10 feet of tht disgusting stuff.haha.ok.then there was ginseng chicken,korean new yr cake,then buffet for breakfast,the porridge.the all other sorts of steamboat and stuff simmering in a pan.ok.nt bad.yep.i love skiing!ahh.haha.i actually can ski.haha.yep.the tour guide was a ski instructor too.but at first the person who taught us the basics was th eyong pyong ski resort instructor.haha.cher thinks hes quite cute.ok.hes nt bad.but he was wearing sunglasses so u cant really see his face.yep.but he looked quite man.haha.korean guys are like so not good looking!eew.like,the only decent looking ppl i saw were only the guy who sat nxt to me on the plane and the ski instructor i guess.the guy who sat nxt to me on the plane was quite nice.he helped me adjust the seat when I was having sme problems.and he woke me up when the meals arrived.yea.and he helped me communicate with the stewardess seeing tht I couldnt speak korean and he could.yep.yep.had lotsa fun at the various hotels we stayed at.yea.stayed up till very late just watching tv and goofing ard.haha.yep.ate lostsa chips,and junk food.yep.on the bus we slept.yep.the cher and I sat tgt and listened to my mp3 player.then we talked.yep.me,charm,cher and sheng shared a room.yiting,yixue and ryan shared anth.yea.then everynight,we wud gather at a room and everyone would stay there until 2 in the morning.yea.lots of funny stuff happened there.gosh.laughed until everyone was practically rolling on the bed.haha.yep.went to everland and lotte world.korean themeparks.damn nice.really big and fun.but each place,we were like,only limited to five rides per ticket.luckily the adults didnt reallt want to play[with the exception of yiting and cher.]so everyone had extra games to play.yep.then charm,yixue and me sat on this taugay like ride.haha.when we were waiting our turn,there was this bunch of korean guys on it already.then when the taugay seat suddenly sprang skywards,the guys went woah~ in unison in this low voice.haha.yep.then the 3 of us were trying to keep poker-straight faces but we still burst out laughing in the end.it was hilarious.yep.then we[all the 7 kids] went to the haunted hse.damn.bloody waste of rides.sheesh.so kiddy.yea.then we went to this other haunted hse at lotte world.ok.tht WAS scary.haha.yea.you had to sit at this table and theyll turn out the lights.then some guy will tell you a ghost story,in korean.well,better tht I didnt understand it.the effects were GREAT.and it was damn scary.haha.yep.then we didnt spend enough time there.didnt get to sit the rides tht we wanted.like yixue and I wanted to sit the viking/pirate ship thing.but it closed already.grr.and the free fall.GRR.i was SO looking forward to sitting tht.actually it was kinda good tht we didnt sit it.seeing tht yixue and I BOTH had a fear of heights.haha.and it was really really high up.yep.ohh.my dashing little brother managed to infatuate 2 girls on the trip.haha.there were this 3 girls.christie,cherie and carmen.everyone was saying tht carmen and cherie like sheng.cos they sat at the back of the bus tgt.and sang Rudolf the rednosed reindeer like abt a million times.gosh.haha.then yixue was sitting behind me.we started writing stuff on the condensation on the bus window.cos yixue was trying to slp.so he was writing stuff like,help!then i wrote SOS.haha.yea.then Carmen and cherie kept playing with my bro.haha.so cute.haha.yep.thts abt all.

Christmas
erm.went to sjs hse on christmas eve.yay.played with sparklers!haha.ohh.
candz=dancing goose.
shaf=mother goose
me=mongoose
pt=silly goose!
haha.sjs party was quite fun although shaf and I were terrified by the balloons.haha.
on christamas,charm,cher,yiting,yixue,their parents,lincoln,godma came over.haha.had lots of prezzies.haha.
tan qing shuo ai CD frm yiting and co.
happy hse pencil case and organiser frm cher and family.
piggy bank frm godma
the sims cd frm daddy
harry potter bk 5 frm mummy.
2 love hina bks frm my parents
princess diaries 6 frm gu ma.
billabong pencil case frm jamie.
roxy tshirt and a THAT nike bottle frm bear.
yay.it was a gd christmas.nt only because of the prezzies but cos of all the fun we had!yeeha!I love xmas!haha.yay.

2004-12-06T02:03:00.000-08:00

aaargh,ok.at least i can blog nw.there was some spyware thingy in my com so i couldnt blog.grr.anw,feeling abit stressed nw.trying to teach candz hw to install the fonts.apparently she doesnt know hw to.and apparently the fonts cant be installed.so candz,maybe if really necessary then i go over to ur hse to try and install?dunno.pt,it might be a waste but there really isnt any other way right?ok.nw abt sj.i'll prob have to go her hse also.shall burn the documents into a CD for her since she doesnt have MSN.pt,go with me pls?ok.you know what?jus found out tht if u open a colour photocopy shop, you can earn ALOT of money?one freaking piece of colour photocopy costs a dollar.crazy.daylight robbbery.so have to find ppl to print.the ppl are:

me
farzanah
shyan juang
candz
clare

yep.thks ppl.anw,pt wwent with me to queensway today to find out hw much photocopying colour cost.then we went to eat haagen das.oh wait.alot of trouble nw.sj says tht the stuff pt sent her got virus.great.bloody freaking marvellous.ok.fine.i'll shall personally make a trip to everybody's hse.thks.yea.tyr to istall the fonts for them.grr.supposed to go out with charm aft NP on fri.

got a headache nw.asked mummy for a panadol and she asked me to eat 4.crazy.she wants me to OD and die.grr.

sat

went out to watch polar express with pt and candz.shaf was supposed to go but she couldnt go in the end.sighs.nvm.polar express is not bad but kinda plotless.meaningful though.and VERY exciting.the train was like a rollercoaster.yep.and it felt like a stimulator ride.yea.the small boy is cuuute.name is billy.yea.candz:i'm not crazy.yea.then we went to timezone.the went to a CD shop to hunt for my andy lau ltd edition cd.couldnt find it.grr.so we went dwn to hereen.went hmv to look for my CD.nt there too.so i preordered it.aarrghh.it set me back by $28.50.so ex.nvm.andy lau's worth it.candz took neos with us then she had to leave.then pt and i decided to go far east plaza and take.yep.they turned out nt bad.went with pt to KFC to eat.oh.popcorn shaker is a rip-off.yea.then went hme.yep.ok.

those who have trouble installing the fonts or receiving the stuff, call me.

a new beginning:)

2004-11-29T19:34:00.000-08:00

ok.i have a new blog.duhh.yep.cause i cant view my old blog.so just decided to use this.hmm. i like my template!if only someone did one on roasted marshmellows.haha.yep.crys used this template before.but since she's not using it anymore,i decided to use it:)yep.will blog a longer post nxt time.fell sick agn.sigghs.anw,there's NP tmr.have to brng full u.time to hit the sack agn.

p.s.salty popcorn rocks-GOOD.sweet popcorn-BAD.hah.ali and h3o agree with me.pt and jan, u lose!haha.